Sunday, March 13, 2011


Tonight as I prepared for my inevitable return to work, I got extremely pensive. I started listening to Audrey Assad. I also made oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. That actually turned out to be a great success!

But my biggest mistake in procrastinating tonight was looking back at old facebook photos. Confronted with so many happy memories with friends who are now physically (though certainly not emotionally) distant, it made me dread going back to work that much more. One of the hardest parts of moving to a completely new city was leaving all of the family and friends I know and love. In fact, Christmas break was bittersweet because I was able to see so many people I loved, but I knew that our time was going to be so short!

Don't get me wrong, I love the people that I've met here in New Orleans and could see myself living here for quite some time, but I find myself at once longing for a return to days past and yearning for a future with some real substance, some real stability. It's a confusing place to be. But at the same time I realize that God has me here for some reason, and that He'll bring me to where I need to be as well. He just wants me to work on patience. And a lot of other things while I'm at it.

I just want to badly to be "there" already! Does that make sense to anyone?

While you're here, check out Audrey's song, "Restless." Pretty much explains where I am right now.

1 comment:

  1. Waiting to be "there" can actually mean that you never really see that in being here, you were "there" all along!

    I have the same restlessness, too.